Who are you? Do you know? Or do you sit as you read this question looking perplexed as Alice when Anslem asks her? If you do not get my reference…. Alice In Wonderland is an amazing book and was originally written as satire. The author is making fun of people, and I think maybe sometimes rightfully so.
In my case, he should be laughing that I am so terrified of dying that I apparently refuse to live. When is the last time that you went out on a limb and tried something new? Do you go to an office that you hate everyday or have you embraced an impossible career opportunity? Are you in a relationship you love or are you where you are because giving your all to something new is scary? Do you get up every day full of life or are you lagging and dragging out of bed.
I have been guilty of both. Today I made a facebook post that some people are going to find offensive. It’s not meant to be. It’s meant to be a personal reminder to myself that somewhere along the way I lost my “Muchness”. I have spent the year voluntarily quarantined. Covid has been an awesome excuse. But I didn’t really want to leave anyway.
I thought I lost something. I thought that I lost what I always wanted at the beginning of the year and it took months to know that I lost nothing other than myself. What I had was never mine. I was pouring into people that did not truly try or pour into me. I had a full cup and poured the whole thing out and no one helped refill it.
Today, I found my friends again. The people I abandoned for the people “I loved”. Guess what, the people who love me, they are still here and I lost nothing. My biggest fear in life is to not be able to say I really tried. My biggest fear in life is turn into a victim like so many of the people living day to day who “don’t have time”……
Today I was offered an opportunity for a second chance…. I had done it before and quit. I didn’t have time. I didn’t prioritize me. I didn’t prioritize wanting to help other people. I thought too much and too often about the people who thought it and I am silly for my love of it. That is wrong. And today I start again.
Limelife was my second chance at something I have always loved. $169 got me $400 in makeup and skincare. A tribe of amazing people. Self confidence. A second income. A discount on all the things I love and a reason to write them off on my taxes. And a purpose where I get to help other people feel as beautiful as I think they are. It’s not just make up. It’s a culture. It’s a lifestyle. And it’s ok if it’s not for you.
However, don’t tell me you don’t have time. Our Words matter.
Instead of saying you don’t have time, say “it’s not a priority to me”. It feels a lot different
It’s not a priority for me to grow myself.
It’s not a priority for me to get out of debt.
It’s not a priority for me to be organized.
It’s not a priority for me to be healthy.
It’s not a priority for me to be focused.
It’s not a priority for me to spend time with my family.
Growth hurts sometimes. And I am so grateful to the person who said this to me.
I am not saying you have to join me on my journey… all though you are welcome to. I am so excited to be able to help people find themselves again the way my friends have helped me to find myself. I am saying that you need to find something you love. Refill your cup. You may not be able to quit your job or change your relationship or even your situation right now. But you are never more than 5 years from all of your dreams if you have faith. Someone told me today “Faith moves mountains. Fear builds them”
What mountains do you need moved today?
How can I pray for you?